| life in general right now is amazing...other than the fact i got a dui and now am in huge amounts of debt and cant drive anywhere but work... i still love my life! i have found some amazingly cool friends, all bc of a jackass who is no longer in my life... gotta love when something good comes outta having bad guys in your life! that is all =) |
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| sometimes i wish there were a way to make reality go away... |
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| March was quite possibly the hardest month of my life...It started out great w/ tons of fun but then things just went downhill...and then downhill...and then downhill again. So i pretty much hit rockbottom and have had to reevaluate my life and a lot of choices i was making. It's hard to really look at yourself and see the things about yourself that you don't like and that's what i was forced to do. I realized that there were a lot of people in my life that i couldn't count on and were shady...but i also realized that i have some equally amazing people in my life that i wouldn't know what to do without. In looking back i also realized there were some amazing people that i let down that it now may be too late to go back and repair things with. All in all i realized that i need to get more outta life than just partying nonstop w/ people who care about nothing more than that. I have started the process of applying to AU for the fall...I know that working full time and going to school there is going to be tough but hopefully it will keep me focused. I've also been thinking a lot about going back to church, i think its something i definately need right now. My life isn't at all what i thought it would be when i graduated high school...not saying thats a bad thing, but sometimes i just don't like myself much beacuse of it and the main thing i learned this month is that i need to like myself so i won't let others walk all over me!! |
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| So me and xanga are pretty much dunzo...mostly bc i have such a huge addiction to myspace! Anyways my life lately has been work and drinking like always...I'm on vacation this wk and had no money to go anywhere so it'll just be a lazy wk at home...a very nice change from the craziness and no sleep i'm used to! k well maybe if something amazing happens i'll update some day soon |
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| So i kinda suck at updating this thing, but i just had to say i had the best night of my entire life last night! weeeeee! haha |
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